Trying to Live in the Moment
One of my favorite movies of all time is "Wayne's World." Actually, I think it is my favorite movie of all time. I can't explain it. It's so ridiculous and it makes me laugh every time I watch it (several times.) One of my favorite parts in the movie is when Wayne and Garth are outside the guitar shop. Wayne is eyeing the "'64 Fender Stratocaster in classic white, with triple single-coil pickups and a whammy bar"..... and Garth says " You'll never afford it. Live in the now!" It bears no weight on me - this line, but I am finding it to be my mantra these days.
Live in the now.
I am a planner, at heart. By nature, I guess you could say. I don't like not knowing where I'll be next week or tomorrow or this weekend. I think being a planner is great. It means I'm prepared for almost anything, which, is also weird because I'm also a master procrastinator who does well under pressure but, I digress. So - how do you live in the moment? Truly. People do it. I believe my boyfriend does. I'm not saying he's super spontaneous and would jump on a plane to Paris with me any second but - he doesn't stress about the future. He doesn't get anxiety the way that I get anxiety. I don't think he knows how much I envy that.
So, where do you start? For me, at least right now, it's about consistent reminders. Every time I'm worried about news I'm waiting on or a presentation at work or a task I need to get done in a few days, I stop. I tell myself to live in the now. I'll get to the preparation... I'll get to the news... I'll get to the task I have to get to...all without thinking about it all day long. It hasn't been easy. It's like learning a new skill.
Some advice I've received is to meditate more. I'm still growing accusom to that. I've been meditating on and off for the past 2 years. I'm just now starting to make that a regular routine...but it takes time.
Other advice I've received is to focus on the little things and be grateful. Gratitude for my warm bed, my healthy pets and clean water. Notice the kiss on the forehead I receive every morning and the kisses on my nose I receive every night (My cats, of course. Andrew only does that when he's drunk.) That helps.
Really though... I think it's a combination of both. Mindfulness and gratitude. Well, that an my mantra's. I hope by the end of 2021 I will have two, 8 foot sized, firmer feet on the ground.
If any one else out there is trying this out as well, let a girl know. Sure could use the company.
Self care. Self flare.